Endless fear

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-My emotions some days.

I am the boy who sometimes loses his joy.

Life's not always perfect I don't imagine it to be.

It's just weird you know it always changing spontaneously.

I get very tiered of this every day thrill, but who knows it's an every day drill..

Is it just a trial from God?

We meet with eyes, Start talking about lies, what's the joke?

I guess it's no surprise..

Today life gets boring. I find this girl a girl worth adoring.

As i fall into her oceanic eyes, and pearl white smile. I say to her "come on, sit down, it's been a while."

The feelings of denial it hurts I'm terrified of it.

As I cover myself up in fear. I guess I'll never meet her here.

I have no guts, lost all my confidence.

I see you around, me walking in a manly strut. I get close to you and scurry into my shell.

You're so intimidating. But hey girl I'm not hating.

Its just that fact that when ever I EVEN THINK about talking to you I sweat bullets. Why? How?

and sometimes life's just such a thrill.

They say "dude take a chill pill" I'm not coming down from this high.

You couldn't even find me up here, I'm past the sky's!

my heart races  as my friends chant me on!

Then I get close and every thing has gone wrong...

I turn around, walk away.. I will always regret this day..