Black.

Get deeper, feel harder, sob longer.

The pain is to stay it never drifts away.

How could it? Come on keep going I've still got words to say.

Maybe one day you'll forget but that won't stop it.

This pain is to stay. .

Our lovers lost, oh the money it cost, the stress, these walls.
Now you're stuck in this spot.

I'll cry the pain away I promise no other day!

The dam starts to break and the water starts to flow.

My tears gliding down my face. But I'm a soldier I'll make my way,  I always remember every soldier Has his day.

I'm aloud to cry my eyes shining towards the sky.

As I look around and all I see is blackness.

Where's everybody at? I'm stuck In a hole, I look and look still can't find my soul.

I know who I am and  but not set to be. I'm going to be the best man I'm set out to be.

The blacks fading to a light grey, as I think I start to form my path.

To the heaven above please help me make my way!

And from then on i forget what to say.

I'm freezing up, caught in my own words.

The lord can lead the way if we heard no words neither had sight.

I hold his hand for he guides Me through the night.

Under pressure

You know, I'm a rebel at soul I fight temptations like it's cool.

These thoughts come and go but sometimes I make my mind slow.

I wouldn't know where I was if it wasn't for the shoes on my feet.

Now I'm going to give you a thought; it might sound sweet but don't even think, because this thought could take you to the streets.

Its a dark night you and the world.

You're venturing the city like a night owl.

You see a place that looks kinda cool, next thing you know you're in this bar playing pool.

Someone asks if you drink you said no. But I think you're thinking a little slow..

There's all these temptations oh no you better go..
You left that bar that night, you ran from the thought.

Don't think we can fight A battle like that.

Run! Run fast! Don't let the pressure last.

Lost love

Our eyes meet, our faces greet, oh this is getting great.

My mind can never lose your name.

You're constantly in my brain.

Words don't explain you girl. Your a dream come true in my world.

You are an angel. But I want to be your guardian this time. Let me protect you.

The world is a shameful place you know.

Don't worry ill be right by your side through day and night.

I'll comfort you when you need it, love you when you already have it, save you from the bad, make you feel good when your sad.

Come on babe trust me.

We can have this world, I'll make the Temple your palace. I'll show you I can I will!

All you have to do is have faith, just trust me.

You fall and I'll be behind to catch you.

but hurry this feeling won't last forever if it's just me. Just show me. Life is here but not forever.

fly with me! Lets soar over the seas you and me please?

I'll never forget, you'll make my life a dream.

Never the less you're still so very unseen.. Am i lost in my dreams?

Pinch me. Wake me up, hurry! Oh no now the bad starts happening.

What's going on? This was nothing of how it seemed. You know.. In my dream.

am I seeing things?

No no no don't do this to me. I was happy, but now every thing is such a gloom.

I hope one day for this    dream    to    come    true..

Christmas break.

My breathing is getting heavy these thoughts are overbearing. My heart beats faster as my mind is getting deeper. I am stuck, no where to go. The days count down and what if all we are doing is waiting around. If these are really our last days lets do something worth remebering. Me and You Vs. the world and it is a powerful place. Can we make it in a world full of disgrace? Lets have fun this break, be someone! Not just wait around. What really will happen this 12/21/12? Nothing, possibly. But WHAT IF?

This blog is getting past my cerfew. I'm Running late but the night is full of my bundled up faith. I wish the best for every one this break have fun, live it up, no regrets & just as well no mistakes!

Endless fear

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-My emotions some days.

I am the boy who sometimes loses his joy.

Life's not always perfect I don't imagine it to be.

It's just weird you know it always changing spontaneously.

I get very tiered of this every day thrill, but who knows it's an every day drill..

Is it just a trial from God?

We meet with eyes, Start talking about lies, what's the joke?

I guess it's no surprise..

Today life gets boring. I find this girl a girl worth adoring.

As i fall into her oceanic eyes, and pearl white smile. I say to her "come on, sit down, it's been a while."

The feelings of denial it hurts I'm terrified of it.

As I cover myself up in fear. I guess I'll never meet her here.

I have no guts, lost all my confidence.

I see you around, me walking in a manly strut. I get close to you and scurry into my shell.

You're so intimidating. But hey girl I'm not hating.

Its just that fact that when ever I EVEN THINK about talking to you I sweat bullets. Why? How?

and sometimes life's just such a thrill.

They say "dude take a chill pill" I'm not coming down from this high.

You couldn't even find me up here, I'm past the sky's!

my heart races  as my friends chant me on!

Then I get close and every thing has gone wrong...

I turn around, walk away.. I will always regret this day.. 

Space bound

I'm in the clouds but only with my thoughts. I'm going somewhere with no intentions. I'm fighting a battle that is most common, my spirit Vs. my human immortality.
This war never gets old, you could say there is always a new conflict. You can never tell who's winning Because in this war there is no winner. Nobody is victorious. I get held back because of this body. It's with me till life ends on earth and starts somewhere else. It's just a cycle. Like when the rain meets the sun.
We are friends my body and I. but it burns me constantly. My body is only skin as I am only human. The natural man is the evil burning inside me. My spirit stands glorious with power in the clouds. I will always be me, from now until eternity. My strength is weak but my faith is strong. My God, my father in heaven, is in the end where I belong. Stay true to yourself as well as your God. Cherish your life. As we are only space bound.
Realize real lies.

Dream Girl

You're my dream girl,

I know that you don't know I exist but that's what makes the mystery.

I think about you daily and can't control my thoughts. 

I will find you my sweet dream girl, even if it means the end of the world.

You're in my head, the tears I shed, and the prayers I lye upon my bed.

I imagine you as with lightly tanned skin and your face uniquely placed with beautiful imperfection, your hair fallen pass your shoulder blades,  a smile that anyone would love,  a girl with the personality of an angel, and so spiritually strong.

O' dream girl it feels as if we've crossed paths from time to time but never exchanged voices.

You make Me feel so alone with a world free to roam..

as lost as a grain of sand in a large room.

I hope as to one day when we cross paths for you to reveal your glimmering beauty unto me.

But I guess for now I'll go look for what only my eyes can see.

Slowly

Tonight as I process my thoughts about today. I remember that i always try to include God in EVERYTHING I do. Even if it doesn't seem possible it is! As we go to school or work we could choose to say a prayer, look for opportunities to share the Gospel, keep him in mind as we are in a conversation, listen to music that only uplifts us, and i could keep going on but you get the point.
We are here to prove who we are as human beings. Yes we can enjoy our lives! But we should do it in good standard and the right ways. we don't need to hurt our bodies and spirits to have fun. We don't need to go out and drink, smoke, live immodestly, do things we know our wrong, Ect.
I love everyone and just want you all to know no matter who you are and what you have done heavenly father wants you back in his kingdom someday.

The unknown

Is it weird to think we go day to day dreaming of things that are only so close?
We can accomplish anything we set our minds to right? Why don't we reach out our hands and take the things right in front of us?  I feel it's because we only want what we can't have.. It's crazy how many amazing opportunities we let fly out the door; it actually drives my crazy and i feel so dumb when i realize it just happened! Don't take life for granted: set goals, take chances, love someone you would never think to love, make a friend, do something crazy!
It's getting late now as i start to drift away in my own thoughts, my eyes begin to shut, i fall deeper and deeper into this spiral of wonders and dreams, I'm so lost but so found. Just take your time our lives are just beginning.